i’ve come to the conclusion that pretty much everything you need to know in life can be summed up by these three children’s songs, which i’ve been singing on continuous loop lately, as caleb requests them in inimitable toddler fashion, over and over and over…

1.  row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, merrily merrily merrily merrily.  life is but a dream.   if this isn’t a spiritual teaching, i don’t know what is. 

2.  the barney theme song.  as annoying as that big, purple dinosaur is, caleb just loves this song and i have to admit, it’s growing on me.  i love you; you love me; we’re a happy family, with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.  won’t you say you love me, too?   it doesn’t get more fundamental than that. 

3.  the itsy-bitsy spider climbed up the water spout.  down came the rain and washed the spider out.  out came the sun and dried up all the rain and the itsy-bitsy spider climbed up the spout again.   this one might be my favorite.  we’re all the itsy-bitsy spider. 

i love singing these songs, these mantras, to my wide-eyed, expectant son–the boy with cheeks like ripe peaches who claps his still-dimpled hands as i sing. 



things i have found myself saying to my toddler son in the last couple of weeks:

1.  oh no, buddy!  DON’T lick the toilet!!!

2.  sweetie, markers are for DRAWING, not for sticking up your nose.

3.  (hearing a gagging noise from across the room) we don’t eat dog food!  yucky!


April 11, 2008

hello, world!  i have come to the surface again after a too-long stint in a little ring of hell i call early pregnancy, kelly-style.  after months of blinding nausea and more vomiting than i have time to tell you about, i am back to (almost) normal speed in a BRAND-NEW LIFE!  within the span of less than a month, my whole world got turned upside down in the very best ways possible, just when i thought there was no hope for change.  my troubled heart was finally satisfied when, upon the realization that this surprise pregnancy would render me totally disabled for the first trimester, i quit my job and we decided i would STAY HOME–my ultimate DREAM!  now i am living a life i did not think would be an option for me–all day with my sweet toddler and time to care for my home, myself and my mate.  i am re-discovering the joys of cooking and have been whipping up mouth-watering treats every night for dinner.  i think i love watching jay enjoy them even more than i love stuffing my face. 

when i was a girl–about four years old–i lived in denver and we took many trips to the rockies in my uncle bill’s old skool red jeep he called “ruby”.  one time we were driving through a cloud high in the mountains and my aunt asked me if i wanted to “touch” the clouds.  we rolled down the squeaky window and i waved my little hand out the window for what seemed like a long time until the last wisps of cloud had gone.  it felt so magical to actually touch a cloud.  with all of my dreams coming true these days, i feel surrounded my miracles, like that day in the cloud.  i reach out my hand to touch them, feeling like the luckiest girl.